suncheater

I wanted to mention my doctor appointment today before I forget to. It turned out pretty good I guess. I'm now going to be taking an anti-depressant and some sleeping pills. I don't know exactly how they'll make me feel, but I'll keep posting.

Well, lucky me, I caught a dreadful cold yesterday. My throat is super sore and last night I couldn't sleep because of it. Now I'm really tired today.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and tell everyone that I'm going to the doctor's today to talk about my depression and see what we can do about it. I'm not sure if I'm excited or if I'm dreading it. Oh well, it doesn't matter much I guess.

I'll tell you how it went once I get back. Wish me luck.

Every passing day I feel like I'm being smacked, betrayed, or pushed off a cliff by my sister. I feel bruised inside like her continuous emotional abuse is literally hurting the inside of me. I want to get away from her any possible way. Right now the only way I can get away from her is not talking to her and I know it makes her angry. But I don't care, it protects me a little from her abuse. I don't want to feel worthless and yet she makes me feel like I am.

I just wanted to pop in and say that my sister has come back. I figured enough since her ED chains her to this house. We're the only one's who provide her enough food to binge on and a place to purge. Well, her absence was good even though it didn't last long. It gave me a little break from her.

Well, it's been a little while since I have written last. But a lot has happened in that little while. Let me just say it straight out, my sister ran away last night. We know where she is though so we're not too worried. The only thing we're worried about is that she'll get into even more trouble. I suppose I need to say why she ran away.

Hi, since this is an anonymous journal I'm going to refer to myself as Suncheater. I don't really expect too many people to read my journal, but I want to let everyone know what this place is about just in case. It is basically a place where I can spill my heart out without letting my family or friends know it's me. Why would I want to do that? To protect myself while allowing a flow of almost complete expression.